• Season 4, Ep 6

Farrah Speaks Up

When Farrah begins to explain the sex tape, Dr. Jenn has to shut down the cameras.

02/06/2014 ยท 3:58

SEEM TO HAVE A LOT OF EMPATHY

FOR FARRAH.

BUT I DO.

IN GROUP, I'VE NOTICED HER

HOLDING BACK.

>> I FEEL LIKE I'M VERY HURT

FROM THE SEX-TAPE THING.

>> I'M JUST CURIOUS AS TO HOW

THAT WAS A SEX TAPE FILMED AT

HOME, WHEN THERE IS ACTUALLY A

CAMERA CREW FILMING.

>> AND IT LOOKS LIKE SHE'S BEEN

DYING TO SPEAK UP...

BUT JUST COULDN'T.

I CAN SEE THAT SOMETHING JUST

ISN'T RIGHT.

WHENEVER I HAVE AN INTENSE GROUP

LIKE THIS, THERE'S ALWAYS

SOMEONE WHO'S A CATALYST FOR

CONFLICT.

WITH THIS GROUP, IT'S FARRAH,

AND THAT CONCERNS ME.

HOW WAS TODAY FOR YOU?

>> IN GENERAL, I'M FEELING LIKE

I HAVE SO MUCH WORK TO DO ON

MYSELF.

>> YEAH.

>> UM, BUT WHEN I HEAR THAT,

WHAT IT MAKES ME THINK ABOUT

IS THAT--AND I KNOW IT'S HARD

FOR YOU TO DISCUSS YOUR SEX

TAPE, BUT MY FOCUS ON THAT TAPE

IS HOW IT AFFECTS YOU, HOW YOUR

CHOICES AFFECT YOU, WHAT'S

CONSTRUCTIVE, WHAT'S HARMFUL TO

YOU.

I FEEL LIKE THIS TAPE, AND

YOU'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS TAPE

BEING THIS SORT OF DEFINING,

UNFORTUNATE MOMENT IN YOUR

LIFE, AND THAT IT'S KIND OF, IN

A CERTAIN WAY, ALMOST MADE YOU

LIKE A SORT OF SOCIAL LEPER.

>> I KNOW, AND IT [bleep] PISSES

ME OFF.

>> YEAH.

>> LIKE, WHEN YOU BREAK IT THE

[bleep] DOWN, IT IS JUST ME

HAVING SEX.

AND I FEEL LIKE IF SOMEBODY IS

GONNA HOLD THAT AGAINST ME...

LIKE, I JUST [bleep] HATE THAT.

I REALLY HATE THAT.

>> UNDERNEATH THAT ANGER,

I SUSPECT, IS SADNESS AND PAIN.

>> YEAH, IT IS SAD.

BUT THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS THAT

I CANNOT CHANGE.

THERE'S A LOT OF LIKE,

"DUH, FARRAH, LIKE, WHAT THE

[bleep] WERE YOU THINKING"

MOMENTS.

AND I'M SICK OF CRITICIZING

EVERYTHING THAT I COULD'VE DONE

DIFFERENT.

>> UM, FARRAH...

>> [sighs]

>> I'VE HAD THE FEELING WITH

OUR WORK TOGETHER, AND I FEEL

LIKE YOU HAVE SO EMBRACED THIS

AND COME SO INCREDIBLY FAR,

AND JUST, UM--JUST BEEN AMAZING.

AND I FELT LIKE THERE'S

SOMETHING HOLDING YOU BACK IN

THIS AREA.

>> SOMETHING I SIGNED.

>> AND IT'S REALLY CLEAR WHAT IT

IS.

>> NO, LIKE...

YOU KNOW, I'VE BEEN, LIKE,

LIVING IN A WORLD THESE PAST

COUPLE MONTHS AND...

LIKE...

AND, LIKE, I CAN'T EVEN REALLY

TALK ABOUT IT.

>> I GET, UM, THAT THERE ARE

THINGS LEGALLY THAT HOLD YOU

BACK FROM TALKING ABOUT IT,

DOESN'T IT?

>> YEAH, IT DOES.

AND EVEN WHEN SADA THE OTHER

DAY WAS TALKING ABOUT [bleep],

LIKE, I KNOW SHE WAS WRONG ABOUT

THE TOPIC THAT SHE BROUGHT UP.

AND IT'S LIKE I KNOW I ALSO

WISH I COULD [bleep] JUST TELL

HER [bleep] SO SHE COULD [bleep]

UNDERSTAND.

[sniffles]

BUT THERE'S A LOT OF PARTS THAT

SHE'S MISSING.

>> I WANT FOR YOU TO GET THE

BEST THERAPY THAT YOU CAN GET.

AND I ALSO FEEL LIKE IT'S

IMPORTANT THAT YOU HAVE A PLACE

WHERE YOU CAN TALK ABOUT THAT.

>> YOU KNOW I DON'T WANT TO LIE.

>> I KNOW, AND I CAN SEE THAT.

>> SO, IF I SAY ONE MORE THING

TOO FAR...

>> NO, I KNOW.

WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO DO IS TO

MAKE THE CAMERAS GO AWAY AND TO

TAKE OFF MY MIC AND FOR YOU TO

TAKE OFF YOURS, AND I WANT YOU

AND ME TO SIT HERE AND...

>> IF YOU'RE OKAY WITH IT AND

YOU CAN SERIOUSLY KEEP IT

PRIVATE...

>> WE HAVE DOCTOR-PATIENT

CONFIDENTIALITY, AND I WILL TAKE

IT TO THE GRAVE.

I THINK YOU NEED TO TALK ABOUT

THIS, AND I THINK THAT YOU NEED

TO GET IT OFF YOUR CHEST, OKAY?

>> OKAY.