• Season 4, Ep 2

Farrah: The Common Denominator

Dr. Jenn pushes Farrah to reflect on her past decisions and consider a new direction.

01/02/2014 ยท 3:46

>> SO--

>> [sighs]

THIS WHOLE THING MUST BE SO...

>> CONFUSING.

>> CONFUSING AND PAINFUL.

>> YEAH.

>> WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME KIND OF

FROM THE BEGINNING--I DON'T KNOW

THAT MUCH ABOUT YOUR

RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM, SO MAYBE

YOU CAN TELL ME, HOW DID YOU

GUYS MEET?

>> OKAY, YEAH, SURE.

>> HOW DID THIS EVOLVE?

>> MY PREVIOUS BOYFRIEND, WHO IS

IN PORN, WE BROKE UP, AND IT'S

BEEN KIND OF, LIKE, A DIFFICULT

SITUATION.

SO THAT LED UP NOW TO MEETING

[bleep].

>> BUT HOLD ON, IN ORDER FOR ME

TO TREAT YOU...

>> UH-HUH, YEAH.

>> I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT I...

>> YOU UNDERSTAND, LIKE, WHERE

I'M COMING FROM AND, LIKE--YEAH.

>> REALLY UNDERSTAND THE TRUTH

OF WHAT HAPPENED AND THE CHOICES

THAT YOU HAVE MADE IN YOUR LIFE,

BECAUSE THEY ALL AFFECT WHERE

YOU ARE NOW, AND--

>> OKAY, ALL RIGHT.

>> SO YOU'RE WITH THE PORN

BOYFRIEND...

>> YEAH.

>> AND HE SAYS, "HEY, HAVE YOU

EVER MADE A SEX TAPE?"

AND YOU SAY NO.

>> "NO, I HAVE NOT."

>> AND HE SAYS, "HEY, LET'S DO

ONE."

>> WELL, LIKE, HE JUST KEPT,

LIKE, TALKING ABOUT IT.

>> AND DID YOU EVER THINK TO

YOURSELF, "HOLY [bleep], I'VE

BEEN ON THIS TEEN MOM SHOW, I

BETTER NOT DO THAT, IT COULD"--

>> OKAY--[murmurs]

>> "PEOPLE--SOMEBODY'S GONNA

WANT TO PAY A LOT OF MONEY TO

SEE ME [bleep] SOMEONE"?

>> NO, OKAY, SO YOU KNOW WHAT?

I DIDN'T EVEN THINK OF THAT.

DO YOU KNOW WHY?

'CAUSE I WAS AN--

>> WHY?

>> OKAY, SO AT THE TIME, I WAS

DONE FILMING WITH ALL OF THOSE

SHOWS, AND I REALLY JUST WANTED

TO BE AWAY FROM TV AT THIS TIME.

SO I'M--LIKE, THAT'S WHERE I

WAS.

>> YOU WANTED TO BE AWAY FROM

TV, SO YOU THOUGHT, "OH, I'LL

MAKE A SEX TAPE"?

>> I WASN'T THINKING OF, LIKE,

IF THIS IS GETTING OUT.

>> BUT YOU DIDN'T THINK TO

YOURSELF, "THIS COULD BE WORTH A

LOT OF MONEY TO SOMEONE, AND"--

>> NO, I DIDN'T, BUT I FOUND

THAT OUT LATER.

>> BUT HERE YOU ARE, SOMEONE

WHO'S BEEN HURT BY PEOPLE OVER

AND OVER AGAIN, FROM WHAT YOU'VE

TOLD ME, AND YOU TRUSTED SOMEONE

WHO SELLS TAPES OF HIMSELF

HAVING SEX FOR A LIVING.

>> OKAY, SO THAT IS A BAD--LIKE,

I HAVE TO ADMIT, LIKE, YEAH.

>> YOUR ABILITY TO CHOOSE PEOPLE

AND TRUST PEOPLE AND MAKE

CHOICES THAT ARE NOT ENORMOUSLY

SELF-DESTRUCTIVE IS NOT GREAT.

>> I'VE GOTTEN TO THE POINT

WHERE I'M LIKE, I REALLY NEED TO

FIGURE OUT WHAT THE [bleep] I'M

DOING TO MYSELF, BECAUSE IT IS

NOT OKAY.

>> YOU HAVE TO START TO LOOK AT

PEOPLE'S BEHAVIOR OVER TIME.

IN MY BOOK, TRUST IS SOMETHING

THAT IS EARNED.

IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT SHOULD

EVER BE JUST GIVEN AWAY.

>> THEN I FEEL LIKE OVER TIME,

NOBODY'S TRUSTWORTHY.

I FEEL LIKE--I FEEL LIKE--

>> THEN--THEN I WOULD SAY--

>> IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH

ME?

I FEEL LIKE THERE'S SOMETHING

WRONG WITH ME.

>> WELL, YOU'RE THE COMMON

DENOMINATOR, AND I THINK IT'S

IMPORTANT TO--

>> AM I NOT DOING TRUSTWORTHY

BEHAVIOR?

>> WELL, I THINK THAT YOU MAY

NOT BE PICKING FROM THE RIGHT

POOLS OF PEOPLE.

>> OKAY.

>> YOU KNOW, AND FROM WHAT

YOU'VE SHARED WITH ME SO FAR, I

THINK THAT YOU HAVEN'T REALIZED

THAT YOU'RE WORTH SCREENING FOR.

>> I KNOW THAT THAT'S SOMETHING

THAT I REALLY WANT.

AND, LIKE, THESE OTHER THINGS

THAT I'VE EXPERIENCED, I'VE

LEARNED A LOT FROM, AND IT'S

BEEN HURTFUL, BUT I KNOW, LIKE,

TO KEEP GOING, BECAUSE I DON'T

WANT TO BE WRECKED WHEN I MEET

THE RIGHT PERSON.

>> WHAT'S MAKING YOU CRY RIGHT

NOW?

>> FEELING LIKE THAT'S NEVER AN

OPTION.

OR LIKE I WILL NEVER HAVE THAT.

[sniffs]

>> YEAH.

I SUSPECT THERE'S MORE TO

FARRAH THAN MEETS THE EYE.

AFTER ALL, PEOPLE KNOW THE TEEN

MOM FARRAH AND THE SEX TAPE

FARRAH, BUT THEY DON'T KNOW THE

22 YEAR-OLD-GIRL.

THERE'S NO QUESTION THAT SHE'S

MADE SOME TERRIBLE CHOICES IN

HER LIFE, BUT SHE'S STILL A

HUMAN BEING, AND THAT'S WHO I

WANT TO DO THERAPY WITH.