• Season 4, Ep 5

Farrah Is Not Comfortable Talking About Sex

Due to her recent troubles regarding her sex life, Farrah finds it difficult to open up about sex in group therapy.

01/30/2014 ยท 1:54

>> FARRAH.

>> SO...I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M NOT

REALLY FEELING COMFORTABLE ABOUT

SEX IN GENERAL 'CAUSE OF CERTAIN

THINGS THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH.

KEEP IN MIND, LIKE, MY SEX LIFE

AND WORLD STARTED WHEN I WAS 15,

AND MY DAD CAUGHT ME, AND THAT'S

HOW EVERYBODY FOUND OUT THAT

FARRAH HAD SEX IN MY WHOLE

FAMILY.

I DON'T REALLY LIKE TO TELL THEM

THINGS 'CAUSE I FEEL LIKE

THEY'RE VERY JUDGMENTAL.

SO IT'S BEEN KIND OF VERY ODD,

AND I KNOW THAT, YOU KNOW, I'M

TRYING TO FIGURE OUT MY LIFE,

UM, IN THE WHOLE SEX ARENA

RIGHT NOW, BUT--

>> HOW DOES YOUR HISTORY...

>> MM-HMM.

>> WITH THE SEX TAPE, DOES IT

FEEL LIKE MEN HAVE A CERTAIN

EXPECTATION OF YOU TO KIND OF

"PERFORM" IN YOUR PRIVATE LIFE?

>> I FEEL THAT WHEN I'M GOING TO

DATE SOMEBODY AND I'M THINKING,

LIKE, ABOUT, OH, IF I HAVE SEX

WITH THIS PERSON--

'CAUSE I DEFINITELY THINK ABOUT

IT NOW BEFORE I DO IT--

I'M JUST WONDERING WHY THEY'RE

WANTING TO HAVE SEX.

LIKE, I JUST ALWAYS FEEL LIKE

THEY'RE TRYING TO CONTROL ME IN

SOME WAY, TRYING TO [bleep]

BREAK ME IN SOME WAY, AND I

JUST--I JUST QUIT.

LIKE, I DON'T NEED TO, AND,

LIKE, I DON'T THINK THAT,

LIKE--HONESTLY, I DON'T THINK

ABOUT MASTURBATING.

I DON'T THINK ABOUT ANYTHING.

LIKE, I DON'T EVEN WANT TO

[bleep] TOUCH MY BODY UNLESS,

LIKE, I'M FEELING HAPPY AND,

LIKE, I KNOW EVERYTHING'S,

LIKE, THE WAY I WANT TO BE.

>> SOUNDS LIKE YOU'VE HAD TO

SHUT DOWN.

>> OR--YEAH.

MAYBE I'M IN, LIKE...

[laughs]

SEXUAL DEPRESSION OVER HERE.

I DON'T KNOW.

AND THAT'S FI--

>> THAT'S REALLY WELL PUT.

>> I FEEL LIKE THAT'S FINE.

LIKE, I'M CHANGING MY MIND-SET

RIGHT NOW.

OBVIOUSLY THINGS NEED TO [bleep]

REPAIR, AND THEN I MOVE FORWARD.

[sighs]

I DON'T KNOW.

>> SOUNDS LIKE THE NEGATIVE

EXPERIENCES THAT YOU'VE HAD,

THOSE HAVE REALLY ROBBED YOU OF

A HEALTHY SEX LIFE.

>> YEAH.