>> I FEEL BAD.
>> NO, I FEEL BAD.
I SHOULD'VE CAUGHT IT.
SHANNA AND I TRIED TO APOLOGIZE
TO DREA IN HAWAII, BUT, YOU
KNOW, DREA WAS NOT HAVING IT.
BUT I THINK IT'S VERY, VERY
IMPORTANT THAT WE CLEAR THIS UP
BEFORE SHE GETS MARRIED.
WE WERE PLAYING AND DRINKING
AND, LIKE--
>> I DIDN'T, LIKE,
THINK ABOUT ANYTHING, LIKE,
FROM THE PAST, THOUGH, YOU KNOW?
>> ME EITHER.
I DIDN'T THINK--
>> I SAW MAYTE'S FACE, AND
I LITERALLY, LIKE, [...] DIED.
LIKE, I--AND MAYTE WAS LIKE,
"NO"...
>> [laughing]
>> AND SHEREE WAS LIKE...
ALL I COULD THINK OF, LIKE,
"DID I JUST OFFEND YOU?"
AND SHAMICKA WAS LIKE,
"YOU KNOW, RIGHT?"
>> OH, MY GOD.
>> AND I WAS LIKE, "NO."
AND I JUST, LIKE--
OH, I FELT LIKE A [bleep] IDIOT.
I HAVEN'T TALKED TO DREA
ABOUT THE SITUATION.
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT
I REALLY WANT TO SIT DOWN WITH
HER AND SINCERELY APOLOGIZE.
>> OH, MY GOD.
WHAT IS WITH THE WEATHER TODAY?
>> CAN I GIVE YOU A HUG?
>> IT'S, LIKE, FREEZING.
HOW ARE YOU?
>> I'M GOOD.
ARE YOU MAD AT ME?
>> NO, I'M NOT.
>> OKAY.
>> AND YOU'RE NOT MAD AT ME?
[laughter]
>> I'M NOT MAD AT YOU.
>> WE FELT LIKE [bleep].
>> YEAH.
>> WE JUST FEEL LIKE ASS[bleep].
I REALLY, REALLY WAS NOT IN
ANY WAY, SHAPE, OR FORM TRYING
TO MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE
OR MAKE YOUR NIGHT EVEN MORE
STRESSFUL OR ANYTHING.
>> ME TOO.
>> LIKE, I FEEL LIKE AN
ASS[bleep], AND I JUST WANTED
YOU TO HEAR THAT FROM ME.
I'M SO SORRY.
>> TRUST ME, I DID NOT TAKE IT
THAT WAY.
FOR, LIKE, TWO SECONDS, IT'S
JUST LIKE HEAT WENT FROM THE TOP
OF MY HEAD TO THE BOTTOM OF
MY FEET, AND I WAS LIKE, "I'M
GONNA GO UP IN [bleep] FLAMES."
>> OH, MY GOD.
>> IT'S OKAY.
IT'S OKAY.
BUT IT--ACTUALLY,
IT WASN'T THAT.
LIKE, HONESTLY, THE WAY I TOOK
IT, IT'S NO DIFFERENT THAN
GIRLS SITTING HAVING DRINKS.
IF YOU ASK ME, "HAVE YOU EVER
BEEN WITH TWO MEN?
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN
WITH A WOMAN?"
>> YES, YEAH.
>> LIKE, IT WAS THAT INNOCENT.
WHAT IS SO REFRESHING AND
LOVELY ABOUT SHANNA IS I KNOW
THAT IT'S NOT COMING
FROM A PLACE OF MALICE.
IF JESSICA WOULD'VE SAID SOME
[bleep] LIKE THAT TO ME, YOU
KNOW, OH, I'M THROWING DARTS,
BITCH, THROWING YOU UNDER
THE BUS AND SCALPING YOU.
SHANNA'S JUST LIKE, "OKAY,
I'M JUST ASKING A QUESTION."
NO, JESSICA'S LIKE, "NO, BITCH,
I'M TRYING TO RUIN YOUR LIFE."
THERE'S A DIFFERENCE.
THE ONLY THING THAT GOT ME UPSET
WAS, SOMETHING AS INNOCENT AS
PLAYING A GAME, BECAUSE OF
THE [bleep] I'VE BEEN THROUGH,
HAS TAINTED MY LIFE.
>> YEAH, YEAH.
>> YOU DON'T OFFEND ME
WHEN YOU SAY IT.
>> RIGHT.
>> IT'S THE WORLD THAT OFFENDS
ME, BECAUSE PEOPLE JUMP DOWN
MY THROAT AND TRY TO MAKE ME
RESPONSIBLE FOR SOMETHING
THAT DIDN'T HAVE [bleep]
TO DO WITH ME.
>> RIGHT.
>> AND I'M LIKE--
>> I THINK WE'VE ALL BEEN
IN THAT SITUATION.
>> WE ALL HAVE.
IT'S FAR EASIER TO TALK TO
SHANNA AND NICOLE ABOUT THIS
SITUATION BECAUSE WE ALL SHARE
THAT COMMON BOND.
SO I KNOW THAT THEY GET IT,
BECAUSE THEY'VE EXPERIENCED IT
TOO.
>> I'M JUST SO HAPPY YOU'RE NOT
MAD AT US, 'CAUSE WE REALLY FELT
LIKE [...].
>> ODDLY ENOUGH, I THINK
THAT NIGHT WAS NEEDED FOR ME
TO FINALLY JUST LET IT GO.
>> THANK YOU.
I AGREE.
>> SO I DID.
I NEEDED THAT NIGHT TO BE LIKE,
"YOU KNOW WHAT, BITCH?
WE GONNA HAVE THIS ONE LAST
CRY OVER THIS ONE."
>> YEAH, YEAH.
>> "WE GONNA BURY THIS ONE.
WE GONNA PUT IT AWAY.
HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH.
CONTINUE TO WALK IN GRACE
LIKE YOU'VE BEEN DOING."
AND GUESS WHAT.
WHEN PEOPLE BRING IT TO ME,
"WELL, IF YOU WANT TO KNOW,
ASK HIM."
>> I'M REALLY PROUD OF YOU
TO REACH THAT POINT, BECAUSE
THAT MAKES YOU STRONGER.
>> IT'S SO GOOD.
>> [voice breaking] 'CAUSE IT'S
SOMETHING THAT HAS HAUNTED ME
FOR A VERY LONG TIME.
>> AW.
>> AND JUST TO FEEL LIKE
I'M FINALLY LETTING GO, LIKE,
"DREA, IT DIDN'T HAVE [bleep]
TO DO WITH YOU.
YOU WERE JUST A MOM,
AND YOU WERE A GOOD WIFE."
>> YOU ARE.
>> YOU ARE, WOMAN.
AND THAT'S WHAT'S GREAT.
YOU REALIZE IT NOW, RIGHT?
>> YEAH.
>> AND NOW YOU CAN BE
A BETTER WIFE...
>> A BETTER WIFE
AND A BETTER MOM.
>> FOR A BETTER MAN.
>> YEP.
>> [laughs]
RIGHT?
>> YEAH.
>> [sniffles]
AM I 100% HEALED FROM EVERYTHING
I'VE BEEN THROUGH?
NO, BUT I'M GETTING THERE,
AND HAVING BRIAN BY MY SIDE AND
LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS WEDDING
IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEED
TO MOVE FORWARD.
I'M JUST HAPPY THAT I LET IT GO
FINALLY.
LIKE, I'M OKAY.