• Season 4, Ep 4

Farrah Talks Trust

The other couples' questions about Farrah's sex tape make Farrah feel judged.

01/23/2014 ยท 2:49

OF TRUST--AND I KNOW THAT THIS

IS A PRETTY HEAVY ISSUE.

WHAT HAVE YOU'RE EXPERIENCES

BEEN IN TERMS OF YOU AND YOUR

RELATIONSHIPS?

>> I MEAN, I FEEL LIKE I'M VERY

HURT FROM THE SEX TAPE THING.

>> YEAH.

>> AND, LIKE, I HANDLED IT, BUT

IT'S, LIKE, HARD TO DEAL WITH.

IT'S MADE A DIFFERENCE IN ME AND

IT'S MADE A DIFFERENCE IN WHO I

DATE...

>> YEAH.

>> AND MY FRIENDS EVEN, AND

OTHER THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN

BROUGHT UP WHERE PEOPLE THINKING

IT'S A PORN OR ALL THAT [bleep].

LIKE, I DO NOT WANT THAT TO

[bleep] UP MY WHOLE LIFE.

>> I AM NOT JUDGING ABOUT THE

SEX TAPE AT ALL.

I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING

WRONG WITH IT, THE WHOLE

INDUSTRY, AND I KNOW YOU SAID

THAT YOU DON'T WORK IN THAT

INDUSTRY.

BUT WHEN WE WERE TALKING ABOUT

IT, YOU HAD SAID TO ME THAT IT

WAS FILMED WITH ONE OF YOUR

BOYFRIENDS.

AND I'M JUST CURIOUS WHAT

BOYFRIEND THAT WAS.

>> YEAH, HE DOES PORN FOR A

LIVING, LIKE, THAT IS HIS JOB.

THAT'S WHAT HE ACTUALLY--LIKE,

THAT'S HIS CAREER.

>> I'M JUST CURIOUS AS TO HOW

THAT WAS A SEX TAPE FILMED AT

HOME WHEN THERE IS ACTUALLY

A CAMERA CREW FILMING IT--

>> NO, THERE WAS NOT.

THERE WAS ONLY ME AND THE CAMERA

PERSON.

SO WHERE ARE YOU SEEING A CAMERA

CREW?

>> DIFFERENT ANGLES.

SO THERE'S A CAMERA PERSON.

>> NO, THERE WAS NO--LIKE--

>> YOU JUST SAID--

>> I CAN, I CAN STRAIGHT UP

HONESTLY SAY THERE WAS NEVER ANY

OTHER PERSON EVER AROUND US WHEN

WE WERE HAVING SEX.

>> YOU JUST SAID "CAMERA

PERSON."

IT WAS JUST YOU AND THE CAMERA

PERSON.

OKAY, I'M JUST ASKING IT.

THAT'S ALL.

>> I DON'T KNOW IF I EVER SAID,

"CAMERA PERSON," BUT I'M SAYING

THERE WAS NEVER A CAMERA PERSON.

>> I'M JUST SAYING IF YOU'RE

TALKING ABOUT IT AND YOU'RE--

>> WELL YOU JUST--YOU DID

LITERALLY JUST SAY THE WORDS

"CAMERA PERSON."

>> BUT I'M JUST SAYING THAT--

>> WELL, I'M SORRY...

>> I'M NOT JUDGING IF--

>> IF I SAID IT.

I'M JUST LETTING YOU KNOW,

LIKE--

>> NO, NO, I KNOW.

I'M JUST SAYING, THE ONLY--

>> PUTTING WORDS IN MY MOUTH AND

STUFF, IT'S LIKE A TOUCHY

SUBJECT.

>> I UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S A

TOUCHY SUBJECT AND IT'S SEX.

BECAUSE I KNOW WE HAD SEX ON

TELEVISION AS WELL.

THAT IS A BURDEN THAT I CARRY IN

MY LIFE...

>> YEAH.

>> BIG TIME.

SO I CAN RELATE TO YOU.

I'M JUST SAYING THAT, FOR ME, I

DIDN'T BELIEVE IT, BECAUSE OF

THINGS, OTHER THINGS, THAT WERE

CONTRADICTORY.

SO I JUST HOPE THAT IF YOU ARE

TALKING ABOUT IT, THAT YOU'RE

BEING REAL FOR YOUR OWN SELF.

I DON'T THINK ANYONE HERE WOULD

EVER JUDGE THAT.

>> NO, LIKE, I'M HEARING, LIKE,

"NO I'M NOT JUDGING YOU," BUT IT

FEELS LIKE JUDGMENT.

>> MM-HMM.

I'M SURE IT DOES.

>> I'M JUST BEING HONEST.

AND THAT'S WHY I'M, LIKE...

>> THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING TO--

>> SHOCKING.

I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT TO

THINK.

>> I APPRECIATE YOU BEING

WILLING TO TALK ABOUT THAT.

I KNOW IT'S SUCH A TOUGH ISSUE

FOR YOU AND SUCH A SENSITIVE

ISSUE.

BUT I THINK THAT IT'S REALLY

GOOD THAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT

IT HERE.

>> LIKE, I'M HAPPY WE SHARE

THINGS.

[sigh]