In this clip from the Very VH1 After Show (which you can watch in its entirety here), host Sharon Carpenter got Kirk to open up and explain his dead-behind-the-eyes expression and the moment he realized exactly what he just did. It wasn’t until he got home and saw Rasheeda being debriefed by Traci that he got the full effect. “I’m looking at her seeing her hurt and tears coming down, it was like, I was trying to keep a straight face but that’s when I felt the hurt too, like it was really wrong,” he says. Still, even though he accepts some responsibility, he actually manages to blame Rahseeda for why he did what he did. Ugh. Men! Watch him excuse his behavior in the clip above.